This feeling
It’s confusing
As if I’m losing
Or I’ve already lost
My heart pains
And my soul aches
Incomplete
Flawed
I see my self
And I’m not pleased
I mourn for what could be
I am scared
Terrified of what it could mean
What am I about to lose?
Is it a loved one?
Or is it me?
If it is I
As I think it is
I’m sorry to all I have wronged
I beseech to them so they may forgive me
I cry to my Lord, so that He can have mercy on me
I wish to be remembered in prayers and in goodness
Forgive my wrongs
Conceal my faults
Soon.
Still confused.
On how I feel.
If I’m not to be there
Remember me
For the little I did
Forgive me, for my wrongs
I regret my sins.
I am terrified of it all.
For when I see myself,
I see what could have been and not what is.
And for that alone.
I am terrified.