I’ve lived through nights I wish I hadn’t
I’ve wished for death even by my hand
I’ve carved my skin, deep enough to feel pain, deep enough to let go
I’ve witnessed nightmares even while awake
I wished for the ground to swallow me up
I’ve wished for the room to close me in
For the last breathe to leave my body
Just so I could escape this world
I can still feel
The hands on my neck
Squeezing, with no aim to let go.
I can still feel
The wandering hands on my body
Leaving a slimy feel
Painful, aimed to hurt
I can still see
The darkness of the corner
One that was safe
Only it wasn’t hard to be found
I can still smell
The dust underneath the bed
My refuge
Before I got dragged out
The nightmares that I live with
All remind me
Of a beast I’d wish to forget
Only he never left.
These are tears of a rose.
From nightmares and monsters.
It starts slowly,
Like a horror film,
Then comes the screams of a little girl,
Held down, head on the cold floor
Tears streaming down her face
She refuses to look at him
Her gaze falls on her little Barbie doll
She barely is 6 years old.
She can feel the pain
Feel the anger
And my screams merge with hers
Only, they were mine all along.
Silent cries for help.
Nobody comes to help.
The absolute terror,
When anyone grabs her suddenly
She hates the feeling of contact
For all she knows
Is to never trust anybody
Men and women alike
She is safe from nobody.
The anxiety
Like dipping in cold water on a freezing night
Like drowning in sea water. eyes wide open
Like suffocating, just like his hands on her neck
She sees her nightmares every time she closes her eyes
Sees her monsters every time she opens them up.
She wants not to be touched,
Believes not in love
Never had faith in trust
Never hoped for a better life
How do I let her know
Not all beings are monsters?
How do I stop myself,
From whisking her away in my arms
To hold her tight in my arms so she could cry
To have her in my embrace till she stopped sobbing
To hide her in my heart
So she can know of the love I have for her
How do I tell her?
That she’s beautiful
Absolutely amazing
How do I give her hope?
For a better tomorrow.
How do I tell her?
That tomorrow, The sun will rise again
It’ll be better
So let the rain wash away
The tears in your heart
Let His Light, heal your wounds
Believe, and let Him fade your scars.
Have hope in your Lord.
❤ ❤ ❤
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